Sssh.. its our little secret!

She begged for one more wish as she stepped into the covered unmentionables. ;) the one little star she wished on would one day be hers. [right.] Sshh. She wishes for that one star. [oh right. there's twinkle twinkle now. beep beep made more sense.] Beep beep no longer gave in to every honk. it lost it's powers the moment she put some sense into it. Is that supposed to happen? The moment you find it you lose it. It's funny how irony starts forcing itself in when you don't want it. But when you beg for rain on a sunny day, it hides away. Like the lil haiku the little girl wrote down. One shining light (too far to reach) One teardrop too long, I wish for one day each night, You're what I long for. But how come the moon lady can't get her wish? She's with the company of stars and twinkle twinkles. [so much for beep beep huh] Beep beep never came and didn't mean anything the moment it did. When it all made sense it flew into the air. The moment she fell for the same joke she promised she'll never laugh at. She believed the same old lie she used to tell herself when she promised she'll never trust. She cried for the same wish when she told herself wishes don't come true. She open the same old window last night, the moment she locked it up and closed all curtains. Were little girls allowed to torture themselves that way? Last time I checked, things weren't that complicated when you're in that age yet. [the thing is she's not in that age anymore.] But everyone needs to go back to the childhood days they used to have. Right? When you're a little girl, you close your eyes when you feel like disappearing. When you're a little girl, you sit on the lap of Santa and ask for whatever you want. When you're a little girl, you long for lollipops and teddybears when you're lonely. When you're a little girl, you laugh at everything coz of innocence. When you're a little girl, you wish on a star and believes that it'll come true. When you're a little girl...

But we're not so little now are we? We got those exams to worry about and we have to plan your whole life or at least start thinking about it. We spend most of our time whining about how hard everything is. But then it's not so hard, is it? Come to think of it, it should be a little bit easier given the fact we got our own mind and we could think alone now. We don't need mommies and daddies to pick us up when we trip. We don't need lollipops when we cry and we don't need stars to wish on coz we don't believe in those anymore. But what happens when you do? When you don't have anything to turn to but your favorite teddy? When you don't have anyone to cry to but your mom?

Let her have that one forgotten wish. That one night she knows will someday come. The one day, she'll be picked up and would hold that one person's hand. [beep beep. twinkle twinkle.] Confused and frustrated. You pretend that you don't even care but then you know you do. The moment you pulled the curtains aside and opened that window, you know you got everything else infront of you. You're blinded by what's infront of you coz it's too near. Why do we even look far off, when everything else is there? As everything pass by. But every sentence we have under every silence, we begin to think there's nothing else left. But then. Leave her alone as she falls and breaks down. The sobs and the tears falling. It's everything she wished for. One secret list, they'll never find. One little wish list, no one will ever read. Hidden beneath the blank faces of that one girl who walks by every now and then. There are days every now and again i pretend i'm ok but that's not what gets me. That's one line you'll never forget. One line you'll hear from her. Maybe not anymore, for the pathetic feeling she's always had never really gave her the courage. :) let's just smile then.