Scared. Fear. Bravery

Maybe when she feels like she wants to be murdered, it shows us that she wants to disappear. Maybe when she wants to finally just crash, she just wants to be dramatically taken away. And when she starts starving herself, maybe she just wants to feel comfortable about herself. And when she does, don't you think you should be happy for her? Coz it means that she's doing something to make herself feel better? But when she starts to stare at the floor or at nothing that's when you know there's something wrong. And when she starts to walk like a zombie and act like she doesn't exist, that's when you know she wants to not exist. And when she walks like her world's spinning around, that's when you know she's thinking of the world upside down. Because if everything's upside down, it only means that the past is present and the present never happened and will never happen. But you know that's impossible. And what you know right now doesn't matter to her because when she closes her eyes and when she just sits there and stares, that's when you know she doesn't exist in reality. Because she's one of those people that wishes she could tell them to close their eyes when she passes by just coz she doesn't wanna be seen and she doesn't wanna see them. She's that sort of girl that wishes she was never here because she doesn't know where to go when she's taken away. She's someone who doesn't feel safe.